5 minute blog

I've decided that pregnancy is tough. Mostly because I have become so incredibly ditzy. Seriously.

Wednesday, I took a corner in Portland, hit a giant hole, and watched in my rearview as my hubcap went flying across the 4 lane road. Marty did run down the road and retrieve it for me.

Last night, I did a night deposit for $75. Today, I checked my balance and it said "deposit $25". I freaked out, called the bank and had them look for my checks for TWO HOURS. Later, I sent Marty to the car to look - he found them. Apparently, I had two deposits but only knew about one of them....

Oh, and my belly? freekin' huge. Last night in bed I was trying to roll over and I kept saying to Marty "I have such cramps, I don't know what is going on". He says "hun, I think you are smushing your belly..try lifting it up to move it". So I did - and sure enough, everything was better. My boobs are still bigger than my belly though - I think they are bigger than the statue of liberty. They are amazing (like a World Wonder type deal).

I told Marty my 10-year-secret and he told me his and that was really good. I feel like an incredible weight that I didn't even know was there is now gone.

Yesterday

Yesterday, we went to the doctors again for a new ultrasound. Last week, we could only see the embryotic sac. Yesterday, we saw the sac........then we saw our baby!!!! Right now, it/he/she is just a little tiny bean with arm buds and this big, huge heart pumping away. We got to hear the heartbeat too - it was absolutely amazing. The most amazing thing ever to hear and to know is that this is growing inside of me. To see that, baffled me to think about things like abortion or smoking/drinking while you are pregnant. I'm a garden that is growing a little shana-marty baby. It already has a heart and I'm only 6.5 weeks along! The heart beat was 129 - so fast and seemingly so loud! Marty asked for pictures of the baby so we got two pics as well, so our baby's photo album has begun :) It's just like a new version of falling in love.

still in shock

So, I'm still in shock, but at least now I can spend some time blogging about it :)

I had to go for blood work on Wednesday, and again today and everything looks good!! My HCG levels are coming along nicely - which is a very positive thing. I just want to shout from all of the mountaintops - YAY ME! YAY MARTY! WE ARE HAVING A BABY!

It's funny. We went through so many tests for well over a year trying to figure out what was wrong .. then we just said "we can't do this fertility stuff anymore". I personally was so weary from going to the doctors weekly, spending half our paychecks on ovulation kits, co-pays, and medicine. I just felt like 'ok, I have to give this completely to God'. And then..now...I'm pregnant. Gosh, I just feel like singing.

On a different note, Marty likes the name Meadow Ivy Matthews for a girl. I'm not sure yet. Jacob suggested Meadow Rose today...that kind of rolls off of my tongue easier. For a boy - who the heck knows.

whoa......

oh my goodness, oh my goodness, oh my goodness....I just have to breathe.